Baby Update

My next appointment is on Friday and we'll be able to the heart(s) and determine that we are past the grey zone. I can't wait! That is what I've been waiting for this entire time. I just want to know that my baby is where it should be. Smooth sailing from there.... I hope.

Physically I'm really friggin gassy lol. Not any heartburn, just farting bullets constently. At first I was holding it in all day. Then the next morning it really hurt and I could barely sit down until I let it out. It was actually pretty serious and scarey. Similiar to when my Fallopian tube exploded. So needless to say I'm learning to let loose. lol. It doen't smell and usually pretty quite so I'm lucky in that way. Embarassing.

Emotionally I'm a rollercoaster. Sometimes I cry in the middle of nowhere. Sometimes I get really lovey and Nikki Floats to cloud 9 for the time being while I invade her bubble. Then I get really angry (twice now) and nobody can talk to me. For example when a 3 y/o who isn't being properly supevised creates inky art on my COUCH!! TWICE!! ...... Thanks again to the parents.

Last night Nikki and I went on a tour at the hospital for the the Birthing Center. I'm so glad I'm not due in the next couple months because they have to limit family welcome to join the experience due to a virus that appears every year. I guess both hospitals do that yearly. Anyways the rooms are pretty big and even have a jacuzzi tub in the bathrooms. They DO NOT allow you to give birth in there though :(

I watched a documentory by Ricki Lake called The Business of Being Born. I've always wanted to give birth naturally (without drugs) and now I have the dream of having a midwife. I looked and found one in Billings. They accept credit cards and insurance, but no Medicaid. :) Because I just switched jobs I have no insurance for the next 3 months. So Medicaid is my only option and I have no credit cards. So I don't think I'll be able to do that. That makes me way sad. :(

Finally!!! Pregnant!!!!

I've been so busy with everything that I almost forgot to update everyone. Sunday January 25th at 10am I peed on a ClearBlue Stick and it said "PREGNANT". Yay!!



I was so shocked that it actually said that in almost no time at all. Then I ran to the bedroom and put the stick right in Nikki's face. lol. Poor thing was so out of it... Finally cleared the goop from her eyes and found out that we are going to have a family. We both hugged and cried and hugged and cried. Then threw some clothes on and went to the hospital for the final say so.





















Can you believe it took 3 hours to tell me I was pregnant?! I even brought the little stick as proof in case they didn't believe me. lol. They looked at me like I was nuts. Probly am. They determined that I was 4 weeks and 4 days along.

They did a beta test that Sunday that showed 1049. Then Tuesday was 2315 and Thursday was 4577. So my numbers are doubling like they should be which is great. Thursday I also had an ultrasound that showed the amniotic sac and the egg but we can't rule out an ectopic just yet. I'll call on Feb. 2nd to schedule another ultrasound so we can determine the possibility of a full term pregnancy.

Since then I've definately had trouble keeping my belly full. Seems like nothing will stay in there. I've officially quit drinking pepsi and coffee due to the caffeine content. Although I would prefer to completely quit with sodas altogether, I'm not a fan of water so I don't have that many options. So I have to Sprite bottles in the fridge as a 'justincase' plan B.

I can't believe I'm actually going to be a mom!!!

Double Time

So took the pee test Big Fat Negative... O well ... just keep trying. It will happen!!! We are just going to keep trying and get all that much more prepared in the mean time. With tax season here, we plan to get the crib of our dreams and the car seat. We were planning on waiting until we knew for sure but I'm going to go out on a limb and just decide that WE WILL HAVE A BABY!! Plan B if nothing else will be foster/adopt. We've already been certified and ready to go but the house we were in the process of getting fell through. An apartment is ok for us but just doesn’t' feel right for somebody else’s kid. I don’t know . . .

Ovulation

If you’ve ever tried to conceive than you know that it’s a long process.
First you have to find out when you are ovulating

Then you wait…… wait for proof. Every little change is a maybe. Every new feeling makes my heart race. I wish you didn’t have to wait so long to find out.
Before we decided to do this I got a check up with my OBGYN. She gave a healthy thumb up. I started taking prenatal pills, eating a little better, gave up the New Years Midori, started to exercise a little more and convinced Nikki to quit smoking. She’s doing so well too! These are just precautions that couldn’t hurt. I know I’m going to be one of those moms that are way over protective. Like no bad words around the baby and wash your hands if you smoke and want to hold him/her. That kind of thing…… that’s not so bad though right?
I wish I knew somebody that was going through this or has in the past. I’m so excited and already started searching for baby stuff. My plan is to be neutral and not sexist with the colors. Just because it’s a girl doesn’t mean she should be drowning in pink, same with a boy.

Pregnant Lesbian

As long as I can remember I’ve wanted to get married and make babies. I never planned on being a lesbian, she just happened. Nikki and I met 8 years ago but neither of us had come to terms with the way we felt about each other. It’s not something they prepare you for in Sex Ed. Can you imagine the outraged parents finding out that their teenager learned that sometimes people of the same sex develop undeniable feelings for one another and live happily ever after?

The ‘make babies’ part is a little tricky though. The hard part is figuring out how to create a child without the male reproductive organ. From this very problem a solution was created. Why not get the sperm from the male and put it in yourself? Seems simple enough. . . .Turkey baster? Check! Sperm? Check! Houston we have a go!

Where do you find the sperm? That depends. You can get a can full from a cryo bank In California for $500-$700. Or you could find a donor and write up a contract so that there are no misunderstandings.

That’s what Nikki and I decided would be best. Just so happens we have a good friend that is more than willing for nothing more than the satisfaction of being called uncle by the kid when he/she is old enough. SOLD! Ok so here we go…